Sounds like you were reacting to the sitch of having the daily reminder, working across the street from a trigger. It is an adjustment...maybe you are trying to overexpose so that it isn't a trigger anymore. Preparing for the chance you might actually run into her (which your conscious knows is unlikely, but your subconscious doesn't trust it. That would be a guess.
I am so sorry that you had a hard day like that. I hope that you notice that the recovery time from these feelings is faster, and that they come up less frequently. We all understand, and have had those times, too. (((((hugs)))))
