Actually...I don't pine when I away, I don't even miss him, because he is so boring, depressed and does nothing to enhance my life or our kids lives.

When I am alon....I find peace now. It feels like H is overseas....or just....doesn't exist. H rarely contacts any of us.

It feels like it isn't worth it to me to go through all the butterflies once a week or once a month anticipating being around H.

But, within about 2 minutes around him, we are both comfortable and it feels like minimum...brother and sister. I don't want to be his sister, his mom, one of the guys or just a friend!!

I want to be around a man and feel like a woman!!

Sophie

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Me-50
H-38
Married 15 years 8/7/08
D8
S10
S13
H affair 11/04-7/04 maybe longer
H moved out 4/06

7/30/08- present: Reconnecting w/kids,friendly
10/30/08 H signed D papers
11/10/08 D papers filed
11/13/08 D papers served at home