Thanks for keeping me grounded Snodderly....I am petrified of what will happen next. I can't take the meaness!!!

I will...I will handle it. God says so.

I don't want to talk to my L...

Remember, H asked if there was a prayer for mediation?

when might that come up officially?

I REALLY want to know that the words on my ANSWER stung H like they stung me. Legal 101 or NOT.

I am SO CONFUSED as to WHY the DB way is to act as if when at the stage I am in.

It makes me nauseous to think of even being in the same building. But, the strange this is, when we actually are together it feels right.

It's the opposite of 'absence makes the heart grow fonder'. I am peaceful spending time with him....I am 'sick' when seperated.

I can perform 'as if' IF that is the way to bust this thing!!

I don't have much trouble curtailing my conversations. H never inquires about anything...unless we are at a soccer game.

s13 bday is Saturday. The last 3 years, I hear from H one or two days before...and H asks me what the plans are.

Stupid!

Please help me calm my fears. I feel like I have to hide in the shadows.

Sophie

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Me-50
H-38
Married 15 years 8/7/08
D8
S10
S13
H affair 11/04-7/04 maybe longer
H moved out 4/06

7/30/08- present: Reconnecting w/kids,friendly
10/30/08 H signed D papers
11/10/08 D papers filed
11/13/08 D papers served at home