I Challenged Him to Decide...

[optimistwife]

Well, he did accept the date for Wed which is good. I went home last night and called him after work- and at first no answer. Figured 'oh no, I wonder what he is doing' even though I know I shouldn't. Checked his conv. with her and saw enough to see that they communicated yesterday and he is backing off, told her not to visit that night. Okay! this is a good sign...

He called right then! and we had a good conversation. He ended up asking what I was doing and invited me to come over if I wanted. Asked if I was going to spend the night which I accepted. It was a bit weird trying to control my thoughts but he is choosing to see me! so I should make the most of it- not back off now. We mostly watched tv and I wateched him play video games for a while. Went to bed and I held his hand as we fell asleep.

Sometime in the middle of the night I woke up to him copping a feel! But I was too exhausted to even register and wrapped his arm around me and we fell back asleep. This morning we cuddled briefly and I had to leave to go home and get ready for work.

He has called 2 times today to chat about things. Once from grocery shopping- mentioned he may be going to the farmers market this weekend to get veggies and maybe we could go together.

So- I do think this is a shake up. I sent him an e-mail this morning when I got home. Thanked him for his invite. My 180 is to share my feelings and emotions with him since the past few months I have just been acting happy and only telling him about what I've been doing- not feeling.

I now realize that he is looking for the emotional connection with these other people- and I am not providing that.

I have a feeling that things are going to move much more quickly one way or another.

So- next big day is the Wed picnic... Plus I will call him tonight...