So today is the day W and I are going on a date. I still have mixed emotions about this. Don't mind talking to her but the sight of her gets me upset and thinking about OM. I feel like I am at the point where I don't want to live without her but at the same time I dont' want to be around her. Not sure if this is good or bad. I would still love to work things out and one day get back together. Guess it is ging to be a good thing we will not see much of each other this month. I am tying to do the things Michele's books and other resources tell me about GAL. Not easy as I am still attached. It is however getting easier to get further away. This is a scary time. It is hard to trust that these methods work. Seems so counter active to what your dream end result will be. Faith in what you are doing helps you through. Doubt that this is walking away from R is hard to hold back. PMA? Must be the hardest thing any of us can keep doing right now. It is the thing we must do the most of. Kind of funny, I am not a very religous person but find myself praying five or six times a day. This seems to keep my PMA in an up swing. Not to say there ae not times it goes in the crapper. Another thing that is helping is "tapping", simular to acupuncture but tapping with your fingers and no needle. Kind of a learning curve but the more I do it the more it makes sense. Results may just be in my head but they are results none the less. Some places on the net call it EFT. Has to do with your energy meridians etc. Figure what the heck can't hurt. So, our date tonight. Do you think it ok to take her a flower? Maybe non red rose that means something like friendship, new beginning? Or is that pursuing? Hard for me to tell what is pursuing and what is just being romantic and traditional. I am a very romantic person so this is a struggle for me to hold back. LOL, get myself together and my head straight and I make a good catch if this doesn't work:) Better not think about that option, PMA about this R first and foremost.
