I did reply to him thanking him for letting me know and said feel better. I didn't hear from him again yesterday though so that's a bummer. I wanted to call, but I didn't. I let him be telling myself that it's fine, he needs to rest. Kinda sad today with the holiday coming tomorrow but I'll think of the rest of my family instead.
Hi all, hope everyone had a nice holiday! Thanksgiving was nice. Good time with the family and the babies that I so love!
H came over on Saturday for a couple hours. We talked during that time and then he took D to his parents for a couple more hours. Ofcourse the convo between him and I was a lovely roller coaster...sometimes good and laughing, other times me crying and him angry. It sucked but didn't seem to be all that bad in the end. He kept telling me this is why he wants us to go to MC...so the MC can help us ask and answer questions and give us a place to start. Now this was Saturday and I haven't heard from him since. But he did drop off CS in my mailbox yesterday.
Yesterday D and I went to my friends baby shower and then to the circus with my mom and niece. It was so much fun and the girls really liked it! It's definately not the same as when I was a kid! Much more exciting!
Just thinking.... how can I work on this M and reconnect with H and do the MC thing with him too if he's at work 16 hours a day?! It feels like his job is what is going to block this M from being "fixed".
I really try to do that GG, I really do. It's hard to just smile and nod when H thinks most of this is still my fault and blames me for things. Or he'll say we've discussed a change in days he sees D when we didn't, things like that. It's like he can't remember sh it and he thinks his mental convos have really taken place. I don't cry FOR him anymore though. I mostly cry out of aggrevation or from biting my tongue and taking the mental coaster.
You see FG my h blamed me too, but I didn't let those words affect me. It's all about smiling and nodding for now, then when things are better between you I think your h will see some of your side. He can't see it now nor wants to.
I can't have the tough convos with h without the c present, but we are enjoying each other so much more and not so sure he thinks I am this terrible monster.
You see FG as they get closer and closer more things will come out, but you have to get to closer first.
Believe me if I had not buttoned my lips, my h would not be coming around and being passionate like he is today.
This has taken so much time and patience and saying and doing the right things. Now if I could just get some sex a little more frequently.
Me 50 H 42 S 22 S 9 D 7 M 12 T 17 H moved out 8/2006 H moved home 1/2007 for 3 weeks H moved home 5/2011 for good
"Learn from yesterday ~ Live for today ~ And hope for tomorrow"
Hi all, I'm freaking out inside a bit. H emailed me letting me know that he probably won't get out in time to pick up D today and asked if I'd have a problem with him picking her up from school tomorrow and bringing her to Religious Ed and then we can talk about some things while she's in there. What things? When he was over on Saturday, he said he really couldn't answer much until we see the counselor to help us get started. Now all of a sudden he's initiating a talk???? It's got to be bad. A divorce or something. I'm totally freaking.
ok, FG! Dont freak out! It could just be he wants to talk about something stupid! My H does that too. He gets me all worried about wanting to talk about something, then its the opposite of what Im thinking.
Im still waiting for my H to give me the separation papers that he wanted back so badly....I try not to think about it though.
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
