Ok guys, I have stepped away from the pity party....
You have all given me great support and comfort. It means everything in the world to talk to friends that are also experiencing the same kinds of hurt.
Kel, I am glad that you and H are going to work on rebuilding the friendship. Just don't close all of the doors for a while. You will stop hurting each other if you can be friends again.
Most of us are about as happy as we make up our minds to be.