Good Morning everyone, I'm sorry I've been away, nothing mind shattering has happened, I've just been busy trying to focus on me. Doing only so so with that. Mainly because he's around. T2L I don't think I need to tell you to stay strong, God's with all of us - just ask. I've been asking alot, not getting tons of answers but I know God's there. Not sure if I'm doing any of this right, Sometimes it seems so contradictory. How to be good to yourself and require respect, but then accept H and his meandering does not seem respectful to me.
Guess what I did???? Go ahead guess. Ok you'll never guess, even people I know were like - what are you NUTZ!?! I drove from Chicago to Dallas and went to the Cowboys came the weekend before Thanksgiving. All by myself, oh with my dog.
It was great, and scary but fun. I didn't tell H, he was out of town at a "friends" (I think they really are only friends, she's not blonde, tall, and beautiful, but wait they go for garbage so maybe their just sleeping together) Anyway he comes home Sunday to a note saying I had taken Boomer to Dallas be back Monday night
He wanted to take Boomer that weekend to his "friends" house I said no his pa's too hurt, and so when I talked to him later he was upset I could take him but not him. Well since I was on the phone and safe, I said you know your not taking him to some womans home to be a family for a weekend. You can take him to your p's but that's it. He said why couldn't I just say that. I'm like I just did. He accepted it, he did say well maybe I'll get a dog of my own.
On another note - musical that is, I'm listening to KLOVE radio, some great inspirational Christian songs. And I'm fasting every week till Christmas, something different each week. This week - no tv, next week no crappy talk radio - 3rd week no cookies, cakes, donuts, treats, etc. That should be tough a week b4 Christmas and then the week of Christmas instead of fasting it's more of a GIVING Fast, I'm going to try and be a friendly, loving, giving Christian, more a celebration of the season.
It makes me feel so good to the place I've come if I look at myself and not my situation. Kinda like you hope and putting together that stand ALL by yourself.
Jen Me 32 H 35 Married 8yrs 3/11/2000 - Together 10 yrs No Children
1st Bomb - 7/1999 2nd Bomb - 8/2004 3rd A - 10/2006 4th A & Bomb - 10/12/08
Done sweeping things under the rug, I need to start doing something...But what?
