Well you can't run. So do the rest. We are here and you know it and I know you never thought you would have to face this again. But here you are. I am really sorry for that, for you. So stop being miss calm rational pleasant Hope and let it all out. And don't be sorry about the gun breaking either. Sometimes you just have to do it.

and then when it is all done, you can go back to the calm rational hope that you need to be. Crap I have to get dressed for work soon. Oh well, home later putting up Christmas tree.

If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.