I hadn't been to church in years and I got inspired to go when I was at my Naturopathic Dr. He told me that he's a Christian and that he knows that no matter who stops loving him (His wife, kids) that God still loves him. And he thought that maybe my situation is God's way of reaching out to me.
So I went to an American Baptist church (which is what I grew up as). The first time I went I could hardly contain my tears - don't know why but I just felt that God was there with me and there was hope.
Beleive it or not, I know my prayers are being answered. It's so weird!!! I've been praying that my H open his heart and mind to God - he's not very religious - in fact he's very skeptical. The first thing that happended was my H said he wanted to read Joel Osteen's "Live your Best Life Now". Have you heard of it or read it? It's an inspiring book. It talks about God and how he wants good things for you - AND how he can help you save your marriage.
Then, the other day, my H said that he would maybe go to church with me someday soon - this from a man who has insisted he doesn't need church to be a good person and that many people who go to church are hypocritical. And that a pastor doesn't have any right to tell him what is wrong or right.
No matter if you feel like all you get back is silence, keep on praying, God is listening. He may not answer your prayers, but it must be for a reason. I always tell God I know he has a plan for me and I trust his plan. It is so liberating to hand it over to him.
I have signed up for Divorce Care daily emails. Yesterday there was one that talked about how God may not answer your prayers because you aren't praying for the right things. Ask him to help you pray for the right things....
As a matter of fact, I'm going to post it here:
Ask the Holy Spirit's Help Day 49
You can never see the big picture in any given situation. Only God sees your circumstances from all perspectives and contexts. As a result you often pray for the wrong things. You tend to pray for what seems best to you.
One unique aspect of the Christian walk is that God has given you His Holy Spirit to help you make right decisions and to guide your prayers. The Bible says that "the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express" (Romans 8:26).
"It wasn't until my relationship with Christ grew stronger that I could stand firm and give my former spouse over to the Lord," says Ginny. "I wasn't responsible for him anymore, and I wasn't his mother. I didn't have to take care of him. That was very hard not to do. I still felt I had to fix him and help him, but that wasn't my job when we were married, and it's not my job now."
You might be avoiding the real problem in your life. The Holy Spirit can help reveal to you the root cause of your problems. Ask the Holy Spirit to direct your prayers.
"You want something but don't get it. . . . You quarrel and fight. You do not have, because you do not ask God. When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives" (James 4:2-3).
Holy Spirit, please show me the true cause of my problems. What do I really need to pray about? Guide me today in prayer and in truth. Amen.
Hope this helps, Trixi.
From you posts, I feel like you have a lot of work to do on yourself. Instead of focusing on your H and what is going to happen between you two, hand it over to God. Focus instead on yourself and what you need to do to feel like you have a direction in life. I know it is hard, but you can do it!
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