Guys, I don't really know how to explain what i feel at the moment. Hope, I know this isn't what you want to hear but, I think you knew to expect this. I wish for your sake that the MLC stuff would just go away with the revelation, but it won't. It is still going to be up and down for a while. You still need to focus on you. You are not far enough out in remission yet. Please do whatever it is you need to for your health.
BG-your H is waiting for you to make choice. And even then, it is not going to be easy. Hang in honey.
MT-you just have to keep plugging. You really do. You know it't going to be long and hard, but you are starting to do what MT needs to do instead of waiting for H to dictate your choices.
My H, I still pretty sure MLC. But I think we have reached an understanding that we can both live with. Stop hurting each other and let each other figure out who we each really are. I know that all of this is not as much about R as we would like to think. But about them knowing themselves. Being able to love themselves. And it is the same for us.
Not my best work today, but better than what I might have said yesterday. Love you guys.
If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.
