The Soap Suds are out of the tub.

[kelaaron]

Thanks MT. It is a good place. I am still very unsettled by the whole thing really. But not in a bad way. I know in my heart what is the right thing, and my head is pretty much there too. It is going to be wierd. We are still going to live with each other for as long as we choose to. Still partners, parents, friends. Just not H and W. I don't quite know how else to explain it but we both just feel it is right.

I wanted to say something earlier about it but with everyone else's stuff I couldnt. Was not totally prepared to talk to H about it when we did but... Then after Sunday night, I was calm but very very angry with H too. I had to process that yesterday. This time something that I find to be terribly cruel, occurred. Ow4, H said she is gay. He just let me think it was something to keep me on edge. For over a year. That was intentional pain. A friend said she may not be gay, and friend is right. I don't know this woman but she was a very good friend to H. But for him to be able to fix what was hurting me with 3 simple words, if they are true, and choosing not to, that was very wrong.

So that is where I am. Looking forward. Healing, watching H heal, and getting ready to see what is out there in this great big world. Thank you guys for being here. For helping me get to where I needed to be for this to be ok.