God grant me the patience and the strength...9

[theotherhalf]

this sounds like a pity party not GAL'ing....make the best of it instead of bring the festivities down

an2m, no one around me knows how I feel. I do make the best of every moment. But here, I come to let out me true feelings, my thoughts. Please don't assume.

I went back to some of my old threads, I wanted to show you how much my H and the sitch has changed. Your right, reading those, not much has changed. But here, in reality it has. My H IS different. But we are doing the same things. For H I think he is stuck in his mess, for me it is fear that keeps me hanging on. I am working hard to find my way. To let him go completely. I honestly don't know if I have the courage to do so.