Well, the night before thanksgiving I finally blew up. I couldnt hold back my feeling anymore. I told my H that I feel like he has recently started going to the bars too often (like every night) and that I am lonely and sad.
We kind had a not so pleasent talk. We went in circles for about an hour but overall we kept on track. He didnt say much. He let me vent. I think he was a little shocked and ratteled.
I felt like I screwed everything up. I was just waiting for him to hit the road running. But he let me spew at him. I was surprised. He knew it was coming since he knew he has been at the bars every night.
Needless to say, the next morning we ran a kids race for thanksgiving and we got our minds off it. We had a blast and my H was very greatful for my help with holding the race. There were about 50 kids and that just makes you smile.
Afterwards we had a great dinner at his rents as expected. And he actually even came over to my rents afterwards for a 2nd dinner. It was a nice surprise. My family was happy - it has been over a year since he has been there.
We stayed in watched movies that night. The next day we went to his great uncles wake and went to a nice restaurant to eat lunch. I went with him to keep him company while he stained a hardwood floor job he was finishing up. We then went to Rock and bowl that night and had a great time together.
Then sat. we went bowling and then over to a 3rd thanksgiving dinner we always have by tradition with all our old friends. It was great. My H even put his name in on the secret santa for the christmas party coming up. I was kind of shocked. He doesnt like to hang with that group (still my group) of friends that often anymore. Every now and then he shocks me I guess.
Then on sunday morning I made him pancakes as usual. Then my brother came over to take me shopping for gifts and my H left and took the dog for a walk. I thought that was nice.
That was the first we left each others side since the arguement and I think he actually was hearing what I told him that night.
Overall things went well unexpectedly and we had a beautiful 4 days together filled with fun and bonding. I think he heard me.
Tonight is our night apart. He has band practice and I have art night. I probably wont see him tommorow either since he has a kiawanas meeting. I think it is still good that we have our planned days apart. I just hope the rest of the week goes well.
