Trixi aka "The Pitbull who can't let go"

[Trixi]

Thanks for the thoughts and prayers

What I am reading is actually rather new-age'y, but is very clear in it's message. I'm reading Stop Being the String Along by Barbara Rose and Dear God, How can I finally love myself? (same author).

Both books are incredibly simple. She is not flowery; gives plain examples. She doesn't dance around the subject- she states things bluntly.

I used to feel like I had a pretty good relationship with God. And I used to feel like I had a pretty good handle on listening to my gut. I have moved away from both and no longer trust myself.

I have gotten myself so turned around with the mixed messages from my H; the confusion of vows vs bailing; not knowing exactly HOW I am going to support myself with the real estate market like it is. I have been so focused and concerned with saving my marriage, I have no idea what my goals are anymore. ie, "where do you see yourself in 1 year, 2 years, 5 years?" Sheesh, I'm not even sure where I see myself in 6 months. Worse than that-- I don't have a clear picture of what it is I WANT. I feel directionless. When I pray, I feel like all I hear back is nothing.
ugh, babbling. sorry.

Are you attending church or anything? When you pray-do you feel like you get answers?