I don't have a lot of good advice, but I will tell you that God and praying has been such a source of comfort and strength for me. And I've never been a religious person. What are you reading that is helping you love yourself and connect with God?
I'm sorry that I don't have more advice..... Just know that I am thinking of you - I will say some prayers for you!
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