Hey Ali- yes, I totally think he wouldn't approve me. The reason being I might actually find out wth he is doing. I don't think he would out and out decline me, but he might just indefinitely not approve me.
Since Thanksgiving I have had no contact with him. Although, I did send a TM on Friday that everyone had forgotten their leftovers and we all forgot to eat the cheesecake I made; no response. Later on, he appeared to be online- we had had a lot to drink the night before so I asked how he was feeling. No response. Turns out he wasn't really online. (He had looked like he was online for pretty much the whole weekend 24/7). And now the friend request. No response.
Now before I get a bunch of 2x4s for 'pressuring' him-- he was more than happy to sleep with me on Thanksgiving. I think I am afforded the "right" to make contact.
Yes, time for me to get some freaking self-respect. At least before, we were going out and doing things. We were spending a lot of time together. He was dropping hints that I was winning him back. Now...well...it's not the same. He asked for more time. But I don't see him doing anything with that time...at least not anything that advances our relationship.
I have been voraciously reading on how to love myself and connect with God. I am sick and tired of feeling this way. I don't know what the future holds, but this isn't what I want. Part of me knows I am worth more than this. But then I fall for his tricks, and I guess I must not actually believe that I am worth more.
Me-43 H-46 M 12 yrs 7/09 T 15 2 grown kids bomb 7/05/07 H moved out 8/04/07 11/22/09 told him I quit;let's get ball rolling Mid Dec- he isn't sure he wants D End 2/2010-Starting to consider piecing
