I know I don't post much to you, but I have been trying to keep up with reading your thread.
Wanted to tell you that you are a good man. It comes through in your writing, in the stories you take the time to share with us. You are thoughtful and considerate. And you have a measure of humility that is so sorely lacking in much of our world today.
But the thing that screams out to me the most is that you are a FATHER. You love your children, you want the best for them, and I could tell that it was literally ripping at you to think of leaving them, especially for something as banal as a job.
What I found through my little DB journey was that it is very easy for priorities to get skewed in our lives. The loss of such a significant part of our identity (our marriage) really pushes us to pare down our lives and focus on the things that are most important and precious. Like you, I found that just about everything in my life was forsakeable except for my boys. Anything else, I knew I could live without. But not those two boys.
Your ex-wife delivered a true blessing to you with the words and thoughts she shared with you. It seems to me that she is understanding the quality of the man that she felt the need to leave behind. Trust me my friend, that is a gift to you. Odd that despite our unacceptableness as a husband, so many of our wives are adamant that we are good, strong fathers to our children. Always seemed a bit contradictory to me.
Anyway, just wanted to offer you encouragement during an unsettled time.
Blessings,
Bill
"Don't tell me the sky is the limit when there are footprints on the moon."
