Feeling much better now. talked with D17 I will pick her up later. she says her mom asked her what was up last night and she told her she talked to me and its over. She doesn't want to sit here alone. definitely getting the feeling I have to start doing something with her. Other than dinner and some TV we don't really do anything and she needs to feel the connection.
I am mostly detached T'Gone, I really am. My only emotional tie to her is my wating and i am doing that a little bit better each day. My friend who I had emailed earlier is with me. he says its hard, cruel and mind wrenching, but you gotta do it. You know she loves you and you know she knows. You just have to let her see it for her self. dorothy. He is right you know. I have to let her get thru Oz all on her own. Let her tackle her demonscause if I don't and she comes back to soon, I am no better off.
