I hope you had a good Thanksgiving, even if you did work thru most of the long weekend. So now it is back to school. OOOOOOH happy Days!!! It will not be much longer and you will have some more time off with the Holiday Break coming up. Great time to work even more LOL.
Are you calling and /or texting him? OR You waiting for him?
Well, 4 days in a row with the W. She put on three other nice sexy nightgowns to dance in and get her 1 hour body rube downs. She told the 2 kids that she and I were getting along real well and has enjoyed every minute we have spent together.
She usually goes back to her appt. on Sunday night, but she asked if she could stay Sunday night as well. And what do you think I said?????? Why of course.
We got into an R conversations last night. I asked if this romancing is going to become both ways. I have been taking all of the first steps and wondering if she was going to make any steps. I guess I was feeling that it was a little one sided. She said that she should not have warned all of those sexy nightgowns. She had a feeling that it would encourage me and that she really did not want to do that. But she did. Then she said that she should have gone back to her apt. last night inside of staying. She had work to do, but she want to stay with me, instead of doing her work. My Birthday is this coming Sat. and she told me not to expect any sex on that day. She was not planning to offer it and I should not expect it. I told her that I do not want it from her until she wants to give it with to me on own free will.
I gave her breakfast in bed this morning, like the other morning she has been at home. We talked a little more and she pulled back the cover on her bed and offered me to lay down next to her. I did and we laid there for about 45 minutes cuddling. We were both going to let to work, but she kept saying lets stay here for a few more minutes. She said that a two or three more times, so we did. We even considered calling in sick.
After we lift the house for work I past on the road and saw that she was driving real slow and that her eyes were red and she look stressed. I called on the cell asking if she was OK and she said that she was dealing with some issues one the work she did not do, because she chose to stay with me last night instead of doing her work. That is what she wanted to do. On top of that she wants to be with me, but she is dealing with the emotional fallout of the type of activities we have been doing. Like dancing with me in her nightgown (which are very sexy) cuddling in bed and the couch and the full body massages. She love them all and was happy when she was doing it and want to do it, but now she see how I am reacting. She said that I did everything prefect. She has enjoyed everything to its fullest and wants to keep doing it, but she does want me to expect anything in return at this point and it maybe a long time before anything will happen.
I do not understand. I know she enjoys and wants to be close to me, but on the other hand she want to keep at arms length. I know she get turn on when we do these things. I can see it on her face and in her eyes, feel it and hear it. She know the same thing about me. She said that she has felt under appreciated and not loved by me for thirty years and the total number of days we have been doing these things only add up to a week. I told I understand that 1 week dose compare to 30 years.
What the hell is going on?
I do not know what is going on. I plan to keep doing what I have been doing. It seems to be working.
