I feel ashamed and pathetic.

[MrBond]

I agree with what was said above. Your wife was gone a long time ago and it seemed like she was just stringing you along for some twisted satisfaction. She sounds like a typical bully. And the one thing we tell our kids about bullies is to stand up to them.

If she files...so what? She was going to anyway. Take control of your own life and don't let her pull your strings.