Life in the Rough - No Golf in Snow

[MT35]

Things seem to work that way don't they Hope. Things do happen for a reason. I am trying to tell myself, all of this has happened for a reason, and I am not going to let the opportunity pass me by to improve myself and my marriage, if it is possible.

I should have mine today or tomorrow. Amazon has a warehouse that is just about 75 miles from here, so if stuff is in stock there I get it the next day.

Thanks again for your help!

[1hope]

I guess they do. It's funny, this is so cruel... the OW lives one street over from where my 1st H and I lived. She was there during the whole demise of that M. She knew the OW in that A. When I began to date my now H she and I became closer friends because my soon to be new H worked with her H. As the years past we used to talk about how things happened for a reason, and she used to say look how happy you and H are now. It worked out because it was meant to.

So...wonder how a few years later she justifies F'ing my H?

[MT35]

I am trying to figure that one! LOL. That will be a stretch to try and make those two reach for any justification on her part. I'm not seeing it.. I might be a bit biased in the situation, BUT!!!

[1hope]

I think it is just pure, evil, selfishness.

My H admitted to me yesterday when we were talking that it was selfishness on his part. He was not thinking about me, or any of the implications it could have. He was only thinking about himself and what he wanted.

At least he said it. I still be sick about it, but he did say it.

[MT35]

At least he seems to be seeing what he has done. It seems that the guilt he has been carrying with him has made him act the way he has. With all of that out, maybe things will calm down on his moods anyway. Back to the FRESH START that we all need.

[1hope]

I sure hope so. This stress is hard. This is the longest that I have gone without crying since he told me.

I need to get into my hot tub tonight and have a good long cry. At least he isn't having a problem with letting me cry.

[1hope]

And he is ok with letting me have my alone time to do it.

[MT35]

That is good Hope that he lets you get it out. I know my H is still very guilty cause he doesn't like me to be upset and cry.

[1hope]

Crap, crap, carp. I just can't believe this. Came home tonight and he isn't even here, he's at the bar! I can't believe it. No note, no call. I couldn't be more suprised or crushed. WTF?

I talked to him at about 4 or so. Talked about plowing and how the truck was holding up. I told him that I got out at 5 and that I planned on getting some groceries.

I just don't get it? This sure is putting the M back together. What happened to the communication and reassurance he was going to give me?

[1hope]

I struggled all day just to get thru work. By this afternoon I couldn't breathe and I was just wanting to get home, it never even entered my mind that he would not be here. God I hate this.