W is picking up D17 in few and taking her to her place. W says will have to pick her up because she has no gas, she is below "e". Then how is she getting to work the rest of the week? Told her i can pick her up at 6:15 before my line dancing or at 9:15 after my line dancing. She doesn't want to stay there that long, she says she'll call my later. W is just getting out of work. D17 definitely called her. I think she i still trying to get somehing going with her or thinks she does, I don't know. Told her I will come get her either way.
Postd on another thread today regarding MLC. I have also emailed a very good friend of mine who was asking how its been going. Boy has my attitude changed in the past few months. Wow!!
What's really amazing is that I still hold out hope for us. When I read back on everything and look back, I have no idea why I didn't just bolt the door shut and head on down the road. As a matter of fact I don't know why I haven't kicked her to the curb yet. Why take back someone who blew me off for greener pastures, sleeping with another guy really has nothing to do with me for four months +. I must be nuts....OR something...
Even when this ends for her, it doesn't for me. And even when it ends, there is no guarantee that she will be with me and the odds favor she won't. So I guess I question the question I have been asking myself, Why wait for her if I am not sure that there will be an us when this is over, if it ever ends?
This is my conflict. Because even though I have hope, do I really want her back after all of this?
