omg tomorrow will be exactly a week from the kid bomb. i just want to forget all about my day. it wont be a happy one anyway. last year it was coffee creamer, this year its i have a son.
this is so hard, I dont trust him and more so I dont trust ow. its lunch time, and I said no more alone time, and it never worked before, so what are the odds it will change now, she is biting at the bit, and as I said to him, she will cry and beg and plead, and admitted she would rather share than lose him. yesterday I was calm, today I am not. I HATE being alone, I cant even go anywhere and get out of this house, H has one car D has the other.
M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
talked to BIL, about what H said to him, while hunting sat, good thing I didnt go eh kel? LOL!! he said he dropped a bomb on me, and told him about his son, BIL yelled at him for hurting me like this, and also that H HAD to have his own paternity test. he said H said H was determined to work the M out, if I would give him a chance. BIL said she probably shouldnt lol. he said he as upset with him, for the years of lies, as BIL is so close to us, and that, he couldnt have picked a worse time. and he better stay away from her in all aspects that didnt involve the child, no alone with her, or he would help me pack his stuff, also told him to tell thier mom asap, as she will be almost as upset as I am.
its still hard today. H called 45 minutes late, and could tell i was upset, and for once i didnt say i was fine, I told him, I am not handling you being there, when we know she is waiting to plead her side and talk you into leaving me, knowing that you said you wouldnt talk to her today, unless it was about work, that things with your son could wait til tonite. and the fact you called so late, just make it all even harder. he apologized and said but i love you. that was the time to just end the call, i didnt want to cry, i am so tired of tears.
M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
Bg--you just need to give this plenty of time. I think H is wanting this to be fixed right away and you need some time and space to process it all. Go back and re-read the e-mail I sent you and what I said.
M42 S12/D9 T17/M12 Bomb 1 3/22/06 Bomb 2 7/11/08 Bomb 3 7/31/08 W Filed 8/1/08 D granted 12/17/08 D Finalized 1/29/09
A man who compromises his principles never had them in the first place.
Hey BG. Just wanted to check in with you. Sounds like H does want to work things out but I also believe you are dead on w OW wanting to plead her case and keep him. If you learn nothing from my situation then learn this. Set clear and unwavering boundaries and let him feel the total weight of his choices if he chooses to violate those boundaries.
I would be much better off and much further along if I had done this in the beginning. Love you and take care.
M:39 H:39 K:S14;D8 T:22yr M:15yrs S:12/28/07 EA/PA 3/14/08 OW preg 11/17/08 born 12/12/08 his ~~~~~~~ Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option
hope funny you said strong. I was talkin to crissy on the phone and H had called, his message, i know you are worried and its hard that i am here, she is here, stay strong, i love you.
UGH!!! sorry to vent but YOU here saying be strong is ok, HE cant tell me to be strong!! I didnt do this, and life isnt fair, but he cant tell me to be flippen strong! I HAVE been strong thru the first and second one, and the worst nitemare from hell, has his kid. Sugar is right, as i was, she is determined to undermine me. I wrote him a letter with boundaries, he read it, and as crissy and i talked about, it takes trust to believe he is going to follow them, and he doesnt have it, or deserve it right now. theres also the delete button. no way she didnt call him today, or talk and cozy up. ya'll here are all waking lives that in one way or another we are all connected to our spouses decisions. YOU all can say anything, he just cant drop a bomb run, and expect me to be strong all the time. I am alive still from health and his bomb, i cant always not be weak!
M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
Okay, BG...then, I'll tell you to be strong. You've already proven that you are! Don't let this mess break you! It doesn't deserve all your energy...they don't deserve all your energy! You are taking care of you for you and your kids, remember???
Love you!!! Amy
Me 39 H 36 S 7 S 4 T 15 M 12 H out 8/1/08 OW confirmed 8/6/08 D final on 6/12/09...I'm doing good!
Hey BG- don't forget he says he wants to work on the M. That is a good thing. Just be still and think. I know it is hard, but you have to do that. You owe it to yourself to not rush into anything.
