Oh Hope, i am sorry you are not feeling well. I ate lunch and thought it was coming back. It didn't but..... Just feel anxious all the time right now I guess.
sorry hope, that you arent feeling well, i am struggling just to eat, makes me so sick, we all understand.
i love ya'll so much, its insane, we are in this internet world, yet, couldnt make it without eachother.
where the hay did kel disappear too lol?
MT omg dont EVER eat a thing that came from her!
M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
Oh I doubt I would. I wonder sometimes if she even cooks, since H never eats there. Just seems weird. Before when I had mentioned it to H, he said he had never seen her eat other than 2 times at the store, that was probably 2 months ago. Just part of his weird F'ed up world right now I guess. I know she would have to be feeding her kids something.
Well I get home around 6:00, and H is here working on loading the tuck with the steel. I was surprised he was doing that. Had said something during the weekend about if he could come out and work out. I said yeah that was fine. So I was just surprised. Well the Happy Go Lucky H that I was with all weekend and talked to this morning was long gone! I pulled in and he was over in the pile that is filled with tall grass moving stuff. I said Hello, how are you, and he said something, but I have no idea what he said. I said something else without an answer. I said is something the matter? H said No, I am just tired. I said I am surprised you are doing this. H said When am i going to do it? I said I didn't know what the reclaim's hours were if you could take it after work. H said I will take one load tomorrow. I said OK, Sorry to have bothered you. H said what. I said Sorry I bothered you. H said something, but I kept going towards the house. I came in and got a beer, and started working on the football stuff. Wasn't too long that he was in the house, I had bought some chips for him to eat with his salsa. Their were Doritos Toasted Corn, H says are these them? I said yeah. H said well I didn't know. H took out a beer and started eating. I did get him to talk some about his day, but he was pissed about something. I don't think it had anything to do with me cause when I talked to him on the phone he was fine earlier. I am guessing something must not be great in paradise. Who knows? My Dad didn't send me his picks yet, so I told H.
He did ask if I had seen the two planets that are really bright by the moon. I had told him about it yesterday when I read it on Yahoo. I was surprised he even remembered that. After H ate he sat in the kitchen for a bit, and came over to the computer, I hadn't made my picks yet, and H said you aren't done? I said not yet. He was starting to lighten up some. He said are you going to finish your chips that you sat out, he brought them in and feed them too me by stuffing them, he was being playful at that point.
He went to leave and forgot something he needed. I told him I would drop off the football list to him in the morning. No hug, No Kiss, just talk to you later. I walked out and waved like I always do.. So who knows what is up his A$$ now! Kind of made me laugh a bit though to myself. I got to wondering if my friend's sister said something to him or to OW about me working with her sister and saying something. I don't know, I guess I shouldn't speculate. But I found it a bit amusing this evening.
Just got done talking to SD24 for about an hour she had been in her mom and BF's town all weekend. H hadn't told her he wasn't living at home anymore, and so I went through all of it with her. She has a lot of other family issues, with her mom, H's Ex wife. She is a piece of work. SD put her Mom on her phone plan and now her mom won't pay. We talked and I just told her you know how your family is. I told her as long as you graduate! She says I will. SD has friends that have seen H with OW, and say she is just white trash, and don't know what he is doing. I told her, H has no idea what he is doing, that is the whole thing. She says I don't understand. I said you aren't going to. There is no logic to anything he is doing right now.
It is easier I have found to try and explain H's behavior to others than try to explain it to myself.
So I need to work on my paper...the never ending record there. Got the book today Hope, so I will probably read before bed. Hope everyone has a great evening!!
