untying a few knots #9

[Babygirl]

talked to BIL, about what H said to him, while hunting sat, good thing I didnt go eh kel? LOL!! he said he dropped a bomb on me, and told him about his son, BIL yelled at him for hurting me like this, and also that H HAD to have his own paternity test. he said H said H was determined to work the M out, if I would give him a chance. BIL said she probably shouldnt lol. he said he as upset with him, for the years of lies, as BIL is so close to us, and that, he couldnt have picked a worse time. and he better stay away from her in all aspects that didnt involve the child, no alone with her, or he would help me pack his stuff, also told him to tell thier mom asap, as she will be almost as upset as I am.

its still hard today. H called 45 minutes late, and could tell i was upset, and for once i didnt say i was fine, I told him, I am not handling you being there, when we know she is waiting to plead her side and talk you into leaving me, knowing that you said you wouldnt talk to her today, unless it was about work, that things with your son could wait til tonite. and the fact you called so late, just make it all even harder. he apologized and said but i love you. that was the time to just end the call, i didnt want to cry, i am so tired of tears.