untying a few knots #9

[Babygirl]

omg tomorrow will be exactly a week from the kid bomb. i just want to forget all about my day. it wont be a happy one anyway. last year it was coffee creamer, this year its i have a son.

this is so hard, I dont trust him and more so I dont trust ow. its lunch time, and I said no more alone time, and it never worked before, so what are the odds it will change now, she is biting at the bit, and as I said to him, she will cry and beg and plead, and admitted she would rather share than lose him. yesterday I was calm, today I am not. I HATE being alone, I cant even go anywhere and get out of this house, H has one car D has the other.