Ellie: It makes absolute sense to me. My H was in Somalia, special ops w/ German military, and saw things so horrible that it gave him nightmares. Right now, he is so lost, and my heart breaks because I know he is hurting in so many ways. He tells me that he does not love me but cares about me, that I deserve better, and that he fears that things will not change if we tried again. I think he fears his feelings will not change.
He is also in a job now that puts him in danger at times, that of a child protective services investigator. A few weeks ago, some guy in an SUV pulled a gun on him. But he says it is too boring for him, and he wants to do something with more of an adrenaline rush. Sounds like a death wish to me, and that really concerns me.
I have read some of your threads, but will look to read more. Thanks...
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
