The Soap Suds are out of the tub.

[1hope]

Turn that movie off. The one that keeps playing thru your head. Throw the DVD (the one that stars H & OW) out the window the next time you are in your car. Throw it onto a busy dirt road where lots of cars will run over it.

I'm seeing the same movie MT. I've got that rubber band back on my wrist. Each time the picture starts to run again I snap the band. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts. Snap. Different kind of pain.

[MT35]

Thanks guys! I need to do that. It will really hurt cause that is where my iron burn is. I need to breath.

[MT35]

Thanks Kel, I appreciate your words. Have a great time shopping. Get something fun for yourself too!!

Thank you again.

[Babygirl]

do you really have rubberbands on your wrists hope? I need to do something, I picture things during the day, and almost want to give up sleep, cause this whole deal plays in my dreams all nite ugh!

[1hope]

Thanks guys! I need to do that. It will really hurt cause that is where my iron burn is. I need to breath.

So use the other wrist. No need to make it worse, or get an infection.

[1hope]

do you really have rubberbands on your wrists hope? I need to do something, I picture things during the day, and almost want to give up sleep, cause this whole deal plays in my dreams all nite ugh!

Yes, on one wrist. It is a trick that someone on here taught me last spring when I first found out about the EA. I had taken it off, but it is now back on.

[Babygirl]

well, i wonder if I have any? my d's have a zillion hair bands around here, think that would work? today is the first day they will see eachother since the bomb last week, and its making me flippen crazy ugh! LOL

[MT35]

I have one on there. So far it is helping me to STOP!

[MT35]

Well I won't say it works great yet. But I am snapping the HELL out of it!

H just called to see if I was making out the football sheet. When I hear him I just feel better no matter if I am mad or not. Why is that! I want to cry now, just because he can do that to me. What the heck is wrong with me. Anything or anyone else can piss me off and I will be pissed for weeks, even SD I will get mad and stay mad for a bit. With H, I am so damn weak. I hate it.

[1hope]

Nothing is wrong with you. You are not weak. He is your H and you love him. It is natural. He has rocked you by cracking the very foundation of your M. When you hear his voice it is natural to hope that things are "better."

I have been fighting myself for the last hour not to call my H. I have not heard from him since he came home to use the bathroom this morning during plowing. I need reassurance, so i want to call. But I am fighting that feeling. SNAP!