Yeah, I feel better about us than I have felt for a while. When I look back at things I can see now that we were really just going through the motions, I guess. I know I took him for granted, that he would always be with me no matter what, and I wasn't working at it. I think him living with her has shown what he doesn't want, otherwise he would be there with her, and not spending time with me. He told me yesterday that he is staying there and that is why is why he doesn't like to be there very much. (doesn't make any since, because before he wanted to be there and not at home)
He had forgot the football sheet, vitamins, and needed his fuzz buster out of the truck, I had called him on his way home to tell him about the football sheet. Then he called me twice about the vitamins and then about the fuzz buster. This morning he called on my way to his work, he was running late. Said he didn't go to sleep until 5:00 or so. So he is still not sleeping well there. Which he never sleeps well with other places. Met me at his work got his stuff, and then gave me a couple kisses. I was glad to get to see him this morning.
I feel more relaxed I guess, is a good word. I know it will just take time for him to work through everything. I need to have paitience now! Lots of it!
Yes MT honey, it makes sense. He can't decide so his head is going to the one he isn't with at the moment. He is still testing. Once he is alone, he may finally be able to figure it out. I hope so. Just be prepared that it is still a wait and see thing.
You are doing great.
If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.
Well a friend of mine from work her sister works there in the store where OW works. We found out on Tuesday in talking that she did. My friend didn't know where OW worked. So I told my friend that I am sure she will know my H.
Well my friend told me that her sister says it is gross. I said do they kiss there? She said yes. She didn't want to tell me, I said it is OK. She said well I guess if it was me, I would want to know. Customers have left because she doesn't wait on them because she is hanging all over him and talking to him. The manager won't say anything to her because of her kids and stuff. My friend's sister said you need to bring her up here in a different car at lunch so she can see them.
I know I won't...well I hope I won't, but I would like to ask him what all he does in there with her. We have been the type to mess around some in public, but not bad public displays of affection. So it makes me wonder what all he is doing in there. I never really thought about it I guess. When her sister says it is gross, makes me wonder.
I almost want to say, she better watch out cause she might lose her job if she doesn't take care of her customers.
This makes me feel worse again. I guess. I know I should know that is what is going on. UGGGH!!
You know that it will get worse before it gets better. This has MLC stamped all over it. She obviously is a low life skank and has no problem acting like a whore with a married man in a public place.
Of course you feel bad. Having it brought to your attention and seeing it every time you close your eyes ranks right up there with having your heart cut out.
I might think about telling him that word of his behavior with her in the store is making it's way back to you and that is not a level that you are willing to sink to. Draw another line, but don't make any threats to him. Be unavailable for a day. Have you read the Love must be tough book yet? It is a very easy read and will make you feel better.
Most of us are about as happy as we make up our minds to be.
morning gosh its cold 26 here! wow, you are handling this so much better than if it were me. hope what you said about that book, is interesting really. I need to get a hold of one of them somehow. its hard mt to hear what they do, even with us being curious it still is hard sweetie.
M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
MT-Hope is right. Maybe suggest that out of respect for M he should behave more appropriately in public. I don't know how to put it, you will figure that out.
Listen, you can feel bad. That is ok. It is normal and natural. But once again, you are focusing on his behavior. You know you can't control it but you have to stop letting it control you. You have to figure out a way to focus on MT. It will help you to see the difference between fantasy and reality after a while. It will allow you to be more objective.
I'm spinning right now and having a really hard time putting words together to say what I really want to so I'm going shopping and will check in on you later when I can focus.
If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.
No, that book is coming from Amazon, on the way. I have been reading the not just friends at night before I go to bed.
I know he has to be doing stuff, but I guess I hadn't really thought about what he was doing in public. I had told H on Thursday that I had found out my friend's sister worked there, he was shocked as he didn't know, they don't look a like at all, my friend and the sister. My friend doesn't like or I guess like how her sister does some things, and my H didn't talk that highly of her, but did say they spent a lot of time doing baseball stuff with the boy. But I can see him saying that she is just jealous too.
I do think I will make mention of what I have heard. I know I just need to be still. It is so Freaking hard right now. I liked the feeling better I had this weekend, I at least felt more relaxed. I just need to realize that he hasn't been at the store with her for a bit and maybe since he has really gotten into the living with her, he might change some. I know I am grasping for straws, but how can you not want to spend time with someone and then want to be with them.
I asked him before if he had gone to Taco Tuesday, that was the day he left. H said he hadn't felt like it, so that would have been the first night and would have been there all night with her and her kids, and who knows if her family and friends were there...the ones he doesn't like. After that first night he was with me, most of the rest of the time.
