I Challenged Him to Decide...

[optimistwife]

I am holding up okay. Got about 2 hours of sleep last night so I am mentally and physically exhausted. On one hand I am happy to have gotten to this point- on the other hand I am terrified.

It IS a 180 for me to talk like this. And it WAS time. At least for me.

To me it feels like holding a gun to my head playing russian roullette- I pulled the trigger, and now I will see whether I get the bullitt or the blank.

Haven't heard anything from H. I saw from his FB page that he couldn't fall asleep either. I guess I knew something was wrong by how he was acting the last week. He is acting like he feels horrible inside around me. That is why he isn't talking much, meeting my eyes, or touching me.

Yes- at least there is some reservation on his side at this point so far. That is why I did what I did. Before things went any further.

I am trying to set up a session with Jody ASAP.