Thanks Mike! (And Sara) I am looking into getting myself a massage over Christmas break. Not some back-of-the-hair-salon massage, I am talking going to a spa, having the lights off, smelly lotions/oils, that weird meditation music, etc etc...and maybe a pedicure. Yeah, that's the ticket!
I am feeling a little sheepish about yesterday with H. I really let him have it at one point, told him to just get out. Went on a rant about how he had no respect for his marriage vows, he promised me in front of God that he would be there for better or worse and now he was breaking that vow and proud of himself. He jumped right back with "No, not proud of myself at all..." Anyway I lost it a little but oh well I guess I had been holding it in for quite a while....
Then he wound up helping me off the couch and holding me for a bit before bed.....he hasn't touched me for like a month. I mean, literally, hasn't touched me in four weeks except the night I climbed on him and that was initiated by me....this was the first time he voluntarily touched me. I don't expect he will change his mind but I want him to stop the blame game and realize this is his doing........
