Life in the Rough - No Golf in Snow

[1hope]

Thanks Neil, Yes, I guess I did. Let's just say that I re-sighted it for him... He could probably now stand and hit something 100 yards to the left. What ever. That gun was a special Christmas gift from me to him several years ago. We are both sorry that it happened, but he told me he understands why and that he is sorry that he caused me that pain. Echhhh! I didn't find out until later that it was loaded when I did that. Scary. Could have shot myself in the foot!

Oh well. I'm having coffee in my pj's. Have to think about getting dressed and ready for work. We got enough snow here that H had to get up at 3:30 and go plow. He just came home (to use the bathroom MT, lol) and he cleaned off my car. We slept in the same bed last night, and he held me for a long time. We did end up ML, and it was not as frightening as I had expected it to be. Kind of like just one more hurdle we had to go over. I'm glad that we did. I did not want it to become some huge issue. I can tell you that it was nice, and it was back like my old H. Nothing like the sex we have had for the past 7 months. I truly think that this infidelity had been festering in him since it happened. I think that his pain and anguish helped to create the alien.

I know things are far from fixed. But I do feel the most hope that I have in a long time. Having that will help me deal with all of the anger that I still have about her. These double betrayals sure suck!

Yes, the rain delay for a basketball game was kind of funny. That's a first for me. I was afraid that it would cool our guys off too much...but MSU has always been a second half kind of team. We are pretty close to the college here, and I think I told you that we all bleed green. In fact, it was these Spartan B'ball games that helped get the "ball rolling" with my H and the OW. She had floor tickets and used them to have my H take her 14 yr old son to several games when her H was working. Of course they had to talk several times for game night details and then pick up tickets and parking passes etc. I never thought a lot about it because the familys have been friends since childhood and I just love the son. Sadly, that is all over now. Oh well.
If you think that breaking a gun is bad, wait till you see what I do to her someday when our paths cross and the stars are all aligned correctly. It may be when she's 80, but I'll kick her walker out from under her and shave her head. Skanky b!tch!

Ok, One cup of coffee down and I am back to calm. Should probably get going because the roads are going to be bad. I'll check on everyone when I get to work.

I love you all and am so thankful for the support and love that you have given in return.

[kelaaron]

Hope careful driving in the snow. On coffee number 2 myself.

Yes MT is rained like crazy. But we are as used to it as you all with the snow. Now it is going to get colder.

[1hope]

I made it in. We probably got about 3-4 inches last night and it is still snowing. We are under a winter weather advisory and expect to get another 2-3 inches by 4 today. Winter is here! So glad I drive a 4x4.

[kelaaron]

Any investment we make, emotional and financial can grow now gradually on a foundation of trust, sincerity, appreciation and consistency. The more depth we seek the higher the level of support and being able to build something healing and of value.


That is part of the general horoscope for now. Just found it kinda appropriate to all our sitchs.

H and I had the big talk last night. It was really good. Changes coming around for everyone.

[1hope]

Oh my Kel, that gave me goosebumps.

I am going to print it and put it in my journal for December 1st.

[MT35]

WOW Kel-

That was great. I think we all need that one to happen. We are all changing hopefully in good ways.

Hope, I am so glad it was a nice night for you.

Yes it is spitting snow here today today...not any inches. Just cold and yucky! Hope not any accumulation, cause I drove the car not the truck!!!

I hope we all are turning the corner and are starting fresh.

[kelaaron]

Yes starting fresh. I can't describe the calmness but it is really good. And I finally have my friend back. You guys have a good day, I"ll check in later.

[Babygirl]

oh goodness hope! the gun was loaded??? wowsers. lol rain delay for basketball, that cracks me up.

so glad you had a good nite with your H. yes it is a hurdle that has to be overcome, and it was a good one, if it was diff and better. good for you!

so tell me about this not just friends book, is it really good??
sorry its snowy and cold.
hugs

[1hope]

Yes, it is a good book. Funny thing is I bouth it last March after I found out about what I thought was the EA. Because he kept saying "they were just friends." Ummm, sure. Well, he and the H were friends, and she and I were friends. But, then she was having trouble with her M and he was shell shocked because of my illness etc. So I found this book, along with others and ordered it. I had even ordered one for them and had it delievered to their house! When the book came I saw that it was more about infidelity and I just couldn't bring myself to read it.

Guess somebody was watching out for me and knew that I would need it more later.

[Babygirl]

wow, how many times I heard the just friends crap, it sucks now doesnt it? omg lol you had one sent there? you rock girl friend! I need to get to a library and see if they have one.