Is she is or is she ain't (my baby)?

[sleeper]

I didn't sleep well at all last night.

I was uneasy about my decision but resolved not to help her so much. What did I expect? I should have known OM would step forward to fill in for me. That is normal but what I didn't anticipate was my reaction. I feel as if I've only given him the opportunity to shine and the two of them will become closer. My presence/interraction with X always irritated him (made him "pissy" according to X) and now I've removed that irritation.

About a year ago a mutual female friend told me to keep doing what I was doing. After of a year of that and no change other than friendship and what seemed to be a higher level of cake eating by X I didn't see a reason to continue.

This is only the beginning and who knows? Maybe as time passes relying on OM for all her needs may begin to wear on him and the R.

They've had a rocky R and "broken up" many times. What's odd is they don't stay broken up for long and always get back together. Is that; codependency?, immaturity? or love? I'm thinking #1 and #2. Immaturity drives them apart, codependency drives them back together. They were on the outs only about three weeks ago but I fear it's different now as he took X across country to his parent's for Thanksgiving.

I know realize that conclusion is born of my own insecurities.