I am glad you were surrounded by your children who love and care about you very much.
Yes, we do have a lot to be thankful for.
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
I got another email from H. Very nice tone, just asking me about some business I still have to attend to.
I finally had my physical last week. When I got home from work today, I had a call from my doctor's office just asking me to call them back. I am a little concerned. One thing I am worried about is my blood sugar levels. Huge family history of diabetes...that is all I need. Oh well, leaving it in God's hands.
Everything happens for a reason, maybe Dad needs to find that it isn't better out there, he needs to realize how good he had it here. Maybe he will find God and that is the most important thing when he finds Him he will know he is supposed to come home.
Called my doctor back and thankfully it wasn't my blood sugar but it was my cholesterol. I am now on medication for that, too.
I got a notice for a hearing today. I thought it was regarding the refinancing of our home. I cried all the way to work thinking that H was going to force issue after he said he wouldn't. It turned out that it is a hearing regarding H's request to pay spousal support in a lump sum back in July in which he still has not paid. It is funny how we have been programmed to expect the worst from them. I, also, expected a nasty email when I got home but there wasn't one of those either. He might not have received the notice yet.
Have a great weekend, I will be working all day teaching and all evening supervising a group in their cottage. My workday will start about 7:30 am and end about 10:00 pm. I have to find someone to let my dog out tomorrow.
Everything happens for a reason, maybe Dad needs to find that it isn't better out there, he needs to realize how good he had it here. Maybe he will find God and that is the most important thing when he finds Him he will know he is supposed to come home.
Hey ANewMe, I am glad that they figured out what to do about the test and that it's not diabetes.
Looks like good news regrading the hearing. Try to think positive since it does help you feel more at peace. I do understand that it's normal to expect the worse, in preparation for the worse.
I didn't think either of the kids would be home this weekend with finals next week but our youngest is here. I have to help my group tomorrow. We will be packing and distributing 80+ Christmas baskets for a church that one of our teachers attends. Then Sunday I have a luncheon with my church group to wrap the presents we bought for our adopted family. It is a community service weekend.
Everything happens for a reason, maybe Dad needs to find that it isn't better out there, he needs to realize how good he had it here. Maybe he will find God and that is the most important thing when he finds Him he will know he is supposed to come home.
I spent from 10 to 2 today helping pack boxes for needy families. It was so touching to see the amount of food, cleaning products, hygiene products, and many gifts for the children all donated to the church.
I had planned to go to a play that a girl I worked with is in tonight but I worked really hard today and I decided to go tomorrow instead. I didn't want to go alone tonight either. H wants the boys to spend Christmas eve with him and his new family. I don't think I will ever get used to this. 20+ years of Christmases together and I just can't get used to him spending time with OW and her daughter. Nothing I can do but pray...
Everything happens for a reason, maybe Dad needs to find that it isn't better out there, he needs to realize how good he had it here. Maybe he will find God and that is the most important thing when he finds Him he will know he is supposed to come home.
H scheduled Christmas Eve with boys so that they can't go to church with me. I have been examining why I get so sad during the holidays and realized that it is because my sons spend time with OW. She was supposed to be my friend and betrayed me in a way that can't be excused and then gets to spend the holidays with my family...especially my sons. She doesn't deserve to have a relationship with my sons...That is what bothers me the worst. Time for me to pray really hard to let go of these thoughts.
I am so tired. I have been at this waaaaaay too long.
Everything happens for a reason, maybe Dad needs to find that it isn't better out there, he needs to realize how good he had it here. Maybe he will find God and that is the most important thing when he finds Him he will know he is supposed to come home.
Hi P, I know exactly how you feel. It makes me so mad that I have to give up spending Christmas Eve/morning with my children this year so the woman who helped destroy my marriage gets to spend it with my boys, who I gave birth to! Doesn't seem fair, does it? I feel like she doesn't deserve a relationship with them either. I am not so sure I can ever find a way to get past this either.
I am planning on spending Christmas Eve at my brother's house. Do you have anywhere to go? Can you go visit with your oldest son?
No, I can't spend Christmas Eve with my older son...he lives several states away. I will be attending our Christmas eve service at church. II will be fine...I am never really alone anyway. I am trying not to focus on H and OW. I am going to focus on the reason for the season.
Take care,
Everything happens for a reason, maybe Dad needs to find that it isn't better out there, he needs to realize how good he had it here. Maybe he will find God and that is the most important thing when he finds Him he will know he is supposed to come home.
The boys are going to church with me tomorrow night and going to OW's house after the service. Then they will go again to uncles house Christmas evening. I hate that OW gets to spend that much time with MY children but such is life. I am just glad they are going to the Christmas eve service with me.
H offered to drive the boys to go Christmas shopping for me tomorrow. He is busy today and S21's tires are bald on his car. It was very nice of him. He sent me a check for what he feels he should have to pay for spousal support. This is after he deducted what he felt I owed him...pretty good considering he didn't pay a darn thing for S19's graduation last year. This was money he gave me in 06 and now has decided I should give back to him. Anyway I am trying to decide if I should just take what I got or push to get the rest? It is less than 10% of the total. I keep asking myself as a Christian what I should do but I am not sure. I have prayed about it but I am not getting a good feel for what I should do. Not important right now.
Every one have a very Merry Christmas...no matter what our situation focus on the true meaning of Christmas.
Everything happens for a reason, maybe Dad needs to find that it isn't better out there, he needs to realize how good he had it here. Maybe he will find God and that is the most important thing when he finds Him he will know he is supposed to come home.
