LE, I know that the holidays are tough. I was surprised to see that I didn't even get sad once being apart from my W. But I had my kids. We'll see how Christmas goes.
I did some soul searching yesterday and tried to list the reasons why I love my W. All I could really come up with was 1. She was the mother of my children. and 2. She's beautiful.
I couldn't think of one other intrinsic value in her that I loved. So I think I've been in love more with the idea of an intact family other than a relationship with her. You understand?
I just wanted to share that with you bro. don't know if it helps give you insight. I just keep praying for guidance and try to follow where the Lord leads me.
