I don't know you yet - I'm new here. But your story broke my heart. I've felt the pain you are feeling as a child of divorce. My dad left my mom for another woman and holidays bring up the pain every year for me. It isn't fair that you don't get to have the kids and that you don't have the joy of a tranquil, satisfying marriage with the mother of your children.
I'm in the middle of my own painful marriage (verbal abuse) and I can't bring myself to end it for this exact reason. I love my kids, love the "whole family" story, feeling. I hate that divorce divides extended family from one another too, through no fault of yours!
