As many of you know my only child turned 8 on Thursday. As we speak and at the risk of perhaps overstating a little, there is nothing or nobody rather who is more important than D8 in my life.. I spent a wonderful weekend with her....I think I finally understood that all she wants is to spend some time with her dad and she is hurting.... After dropping her off at "home" , I made my way back to my apt. Well...I get a call from D8 who is crying (actually having trouble speaking)...I hear her say I want to be with you daddy. Let me tell you that that was the biggest bomb of my life....screw the ILYBIANILWY bull$hit. In the background I hear her mother say something to the effect that she is manipulating.....perhaps it is true to some extent but for someone who caused all this pain, what would it take to perhaps comfort her instead. Anyhow, needless to say that the conversation with her mom after D8 was asleep was less than amicable. Earlier, we had a little birthday party for D8 with my side of the family....Happy birthday sweetheart....I wonder what she wished for? I am going to need to find some resources to help me deal with this.....whether it be a book or get her to some counselling.
