Thank you for saying such nice things about me. But I am not any good at this. I don't know what I am doing. I just want it all to stop now.
I think I took my rings off too soon. I think that is why I am have this surge of emotions. Apart from the holiday, I had been pretty even until I did that. It makes it so real. So does that mean I am not ready to accept what is really happening to me. Is that what all of this is??? Just smoke and mirrors until I cannot deny what is happening any longer?
I am crying lots tonight but I decided that is okay. I read that the chemical make up of sad tears is different from that of happy tears. Sad tears help rid the body of toxins created by grief. Not sure whether that's true, but it sounds good.
