Actually there was a part I remmebered, it had to do with feeling the joy of hope and believing in your faith, these are the things that make you whole. Faith in th eLord, in your family and your committenment to all things you feel the most strong about. Not those excact words, but close, real close. I think maybe my tears were becasue maybe a little bit of my burden has been lifted, maybe by doing what I did today and asking him inhis house those questins, maybe the answer is what I just posted, maybe the answers I am looking for are being given to me. They say the He answers all prayers and I have been saying "Not Mine". But maybe he is telling me to hold out a little bit longer. Maybe the signs are getting a little bigger. My burden is huge, but, no to sound blasphimic, maybe this is my rebirth and maybe it took this to help me rediscover and recommit to things i had lost faith in. My chest was tight today in church, but I asked the questions. I asked hard and I asked loud and I asked why He didn't answer, why was i not being heard, why I am going through this, why am I being punished? This isn't the first time I have asked these questions time and time again over my life, believe you me. Just got my sign i think. she just called me on the OMs phone to ask about my daughter. Nuff said. I think that is the sign that I needed.
