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[peacetoday]

Hi
My son 7 was sick yesterday
whezzing touch and go almost went to ER
He is starting to get a little better
H came last night
He was very late
knew son was sick
very UNsupportive
whezzing is a scary thing and he totally avoided helping in any way
I was alone here all day with this kid
thank God for a good friend and neighbot(nurse) to come by and talk to me
I waas exhausted
H was mean to me and made it clear , he would not visit today (his day off)son asked not me
I made excuses to son not to upset him
and he would not wait or stay last night for an extra few minutes till son fell asleep so I could amke sure he didnt need ER
I am so disappinted in H
he still avoids me thinking I will get false hope if he shows a little concern
I was not wanting anything from him but help
asthma is a scary thing and H has no clue eventthough we have been thru similar days with son years ago
I am just starting to breathe myself again
I dont understand how a childs father can be so Cold
when he can clearly see son was sick
this man has nothing to give
how can he live with himself
I look back on My M to him and I see similar occurances
he is a child himself who never quite grew up
he never like me to ask him for emotional help
I think everythime I would want him to be a real H and be there for me, He heard the demands of his own mother when he was a child
he could never work it out with her and will probably reamain emotional dead for a long time to come
peace