Thanks for checking in on me. I am doing really well! I still lurk around from time to time.
I don't have too much to post these days. I am still in limbo land as far as jobs/moving situation. It's starting to drive me crazy but there is nothing I can do about it. Hubby and I have had many many conversations about what to do, where to go, etc. I am trying to be supportive and let him make the decision which is hard but I think it is ultimatly better that way. I'm just getting impatient and frustrated. I have little to no hours at work and yet feel locked in since I do not want to start a job just to leave a few weeks later when hubby gets his job or if we go full time army. But I do not even have enough to pay my bills right now and the people I work for do not seem to care even though I am one of the best employees they have and I have bent over backwards for them soo many times and all they do is take advantage and then screw me over in the end anyways. Ugh!
Luckily hubby is helping me pay bills and make ends meet but eventually he will run out of money too. It's kinda scary. I just don't know what we are going to do.
If I am 100% honest I would say that I do not think he is giving his all to this job hunt. I know he looks and applies here and there but he is not going after anything aggressivly. Which is partly because he does not know what he wants to do and part because he is busy hanging with friends and enjoying his free time. Which would be fine if he was SINGLE and there was not someone waiting for him to make his move.
I love him and am so happy that we are back together and looking to start life over again as a couple but there are moments when I get mad and wish he had the same timeline as me for these things. He just hasn't reached that point yet.
On the plus side he talks about moving all the time and he is sharing everything with me and he has said he would be fine leaving his family and friends behind to be with me which is great to hear. I guess I'm just waiting for the actions.
I just feel like my hands are tied right now. I do not want to go back to being naggy, control freak wifey. That never works anyways so I just have to be patient. That is so hard for me though. Most of the time I do okay but I am getting tired of saying "we'll probably be moving soon anyways" I just want it to happen!!!
We had a good Thanksgiving together though. He was with his family in the morning and then he came here in the evening and then stayed the night and left late Friday. Friday we had a couple moments when we were annoyed at each other but I think it is because we do not sleep well when he stays over as I have mentioned before and when we are tired we both get grumpy. No lasting damage though.
Bottom line we are very happy together and I know that things are going to be so much better when we do get to move into our own place again. We will have a long and happy life together. The separation saved our marriage and I never want to go back to the way we were. So if I perservere a little while longer everything will be alright.
