You are too funny, Woog! The tractor is blue, H's favorite color, coincidentally.....everything else is International/Farmall red on that farm, except the new tractor...
So, how can I put on the sh!tkickers and plant him one if I shouldn't be angry??? OR was that not an actual suggestion...
Oddly enough, we have been watching Star Wars Episode I and II the past few nights with S6. Dan has repeatedly pointed out the path to the dark side. Fear-anger-hate-pride-dark side. That Anakin was afraid for his mother when he left her in the first movie, that his anger grew when she died in the second movie, that he let that fear turn to anger, then turn to hate for those who didn't think like him, then pride b/c everyone was telling him he was the best Jedi, so talented, etc., then he decided he knew what was best for him and didn't need to listen to anyone else. So he made a bunch of crappy decisions/choices and wound up Darth Vader.
Hmmm..........H is focusing on that, ya think he could look in a mirror? Cause I am seeing a lot of fear/anger/hate/pride in him these days, too...and trying not to let it fill me as it has threatened to this week.
My mind is a little whirlybird cage again today. I go through the thought cycle of "be a good loving Christian wife, let him do his own thing, you will be fine, God is in control of your life", then I think "oh crap but maybe the "right" thing to do is to make him leave and live out the choice he is making", then I think "Man I am overthinking, I need to just let it go", then he is back at the house at the end of the day and he is living here but not living here, as my husband anyway, and it all starts over again....
