BBJ, Sara may be on to something. What color is the tractor? Do you have any lingere in the same color? Can you dress like a tractor? Maybe put one by your bed when you seduce him
You are too funny, Woog! The tractor is blue, H's favorite color, coincidentally.....everything else is International/Farmall red on that farm, except the new tractor...
So, how can I put on the sh!tkickers and plant him one if I shouldn't be angry??? OR was that not an actual suggestion...
Oddly enough, we have been watching Star Wars Episode I and II the past few nights with S6. Dan has repeatedly pointed out the path to the dark side. Fear-anger-hate-pride-dark side. That Anakin was afraid for his mother when he left her in the first movie, that his anger grew when she died in the second movie, that he let that fear turn to anger, then turn to hate for those who didn't think like him, then pride b/c everyone was telling him he was the best Jedi, so talented, etc., then he decided he knew what was best for him and didn't need to listen to anyone else. So he made a bunch of crappy decisions/choices and wound up Darth Vader.
Hmmm..........H is focusing on that, ya think he could look in a mirror? Cause I am seeing a lot of fear/anger/hate/pride in him these days, too...and trying not to let it fill me as it has threatened to this week.
My mind is a little whirlybird cage again today. I go through the thought cycle of "be a good loving Christian wife, let him do his own thing, you will be fine, God is in control of your life", then I think "oh crap but maybe the "right" thing to do is to make him leave and live out the choice he is making", then I think "Man I am overthinking, I need to just let it go", then he is back at the house at the end of the day and he is living here but not living here, as my husband anyway, and it all starts over again....
I dont know which cheeks you guys are talking about but Bbj, if you were to "kick him out" you wouldnt do it to punish him. At least that is not the way I see it, you would do it to HELP him -maybe- realise what matters in life.. Get him out of the destructive mode he is in, both self and towards you...
It's like parents being overprotective with their kids because of their love and actually ruining their chance to become whole, complete persons... xxx K
Still not sure the best course of action, let him live here and do the best I can, or kick him out...I think I am taking the middle ground for the next 48 hours. Do my own thing even if he is staying here, act "as if" we are not together even though he is staying here (although his sis leaves today so there should be room at his mom's)...
Had a good time at the party for my niece, she is only 3 months younger than my son (6) so they had fun. About 20 cousins running around playing for 3 hours. I was ready to leave and run home for an hour, leaving the kids there to play w/cousins, and sis said my phone had beeped when I was out of the room. It was H, it just said
FYI no tractor today
I didn't reply, what was the need? It said FYI, right? I knew he went to the cattle sale, I figured he would go get the tractor after. Apparently, he isn't. Okey dokey....not my problem. Gotta enter one more month of checking then go get S6 so he can go to karate...
So this sucks....I am updating the checking and am posting for the last week of june, putting the bank statement directly into quicken so I can categorize....just got through the week Dan was in LA with OW--so many nice restaurants, $290 at an Italian place on Long Beach... WTF is wrong with him, I will never understand...
I was ready to leave and run home for an hour, leaving the kids there to play w/cousins, and sis said my phone had beeped when I was out of the room. It was H, it just said
WTF is wrong with him, I will never understand...