23 months on a rollercoaster: dizzy

[stella_k]

(((Lisa))), (((Essie))), (((Addie))), (((Poet))), hi and thanks for checking on me!

I was busy having my opening at the gallery, it was nice, many people said they liked my work. H came to the reception and left very early, nearly immediately. After the show I went home alone, I was tired and didn't feel like celebrating, had one of them moments...

Last hours before the opening were stressful, lots of work. H was in charge of installing my work and at one point he ignored my opinion and when I persisted, hhe made a cutting remark, MLC stile.
My eyes whelled up and I had to step away for a moment as I was about to start crying in front of everybody, all of a sudden I was reminded of all the walking on eggshells I've done in the last couple of years. H noticed and looked remorseful. Few minutes later his mobile rang and of course it was OW who wanted to discuss their plans for the evening! I tried my best not to react but I guess it was obvious that I was upset (there were other people in the room and I didn't want them to realize what's going on. I think they did, though). Anyway, shortly afterwards I had to leave the room again. H went after me and asked me if anything was wrong. I started telling him what exactly was wrong from my point of view and he started apologizing and then I realized he was there working with me on my show, so I stopped suddenly in mid sentence and said: I'm sorry. I'm glad you're here, helping me . He said, I know, I'm sorry too, and as we spoke we were leaning towards each other and ended up hugging. It was spontaneous for both of us and felt great.

I don't know what to think about it. I remember reading about seeing flashes of old and new personalities, or good and bad, all at the same time. I also remember that in the MLC Resources it was ascribed to the last stage of MLC. Am I too hopeful again?
Aftera ll, he never mentioned coming back or dumping OW yet.

Poet, it is kind of you to call me a trooper! I'm calling myself an obstinate she-mule

(((Everybody)))