I've Come Full Circle 22

[kat727]

I haven't been sleeping well for over a year. I have used Melatonin, Lunesta(leaves an awful metallic taste in my mouth the entire next day) and tylenol sleep time(or something like that). The stress is awful. I feel better divorce wise, I was really moving forward and then of course this happens.

I know if I can't get my mind cleared of this stuff, I will keep having this issue. Funny how I slept better while we were in limbo.

Ex is just as deep in his fog as before. I will feel better somehow when he feels the guilt and pain over all the destruction he has caused. Like I said to you Wednesday, I can't pray for him yet. I wish him nothing but pain. Not very good of me I know but this is where I am right now. I know I will proceed forward.

I am going to heal once he quits picking at the scab. I am not so sure that he will be as lucky. But really what he does from this point on, unless it involves the kids is not my concern. I have been hurt more than I ever thought possible and am still alive. I will make it through this.

Sorry for being a bit gloomy today. The first snow is falling and the boys wake me up telling me the heater isn't on and oh yeah the toilet is clogged. It is what it is.

kat