Creeping through no man's land

[ACJ]

I've come to the conclusion that the only male I am able to have a healthy relationship with is my father. You would think that this would be a good basis on which to use as a template for all my relationships with the males in my life. Not so.

As of yesterday I no longer have a relationship with S16. If I thought it hurt when H left it was nothing compared to how I feel now.

Im tired of fighting. I am tired of being the sensible one and trying to keep my family together. I want to be reckless and selfish but most of all I want to feel loved and respected. My daddy is the only one who gives me that.