Thanks MT. I went to your thread first this morning, and you've locked. We're sure doing that quickly these days, aren't we?
Last night was pretty calm for us. We talked some, and we did order a new muzzle loader gun for H. I told him that it would be his Christmas gift. He had been talking about wanting to upgrade anyway, so now is the time.
He is upset that I broke his other gun and he said you won't smash this new one will you. I said no. You are not going to F any other women are you? He said no. He actually told me that the voilence in my personality scares him. Ha! I told him I broke the gun so that I wouldn't take it and go downtown and march around with it threatening to kill myself like OW's H did. He didn't have a lot to say then.
I do feel like my anger is pretty much out now. I am just feeling very sad and hurt. Tired too. I went up to bed at 9 last night and he stayed down on the couch. I woke up a couple of times, even though I had taken a sleeping pill. When I got up this morning he had made coffee and was already out in the hot tub. He did set out a cup for me, but I filled it and came back upstairs with my laptop. I'm not feeling like getting naked in front of him since I've found out he's been with another woman. She is younger and thinner than me, and I just feel old, tired and betrayed. I can't even go there now to think about it much. Just want to avoid that whole situation. I really want my unbroked bond with H back. sob.
Most of us are about as happy as we make up our minds to be.
