I finally made some personal - as in symbolic - strides in terms of accepting my situation - and detaching from my wife...I've often been able to get by with more or less an ascetic lifestyle - and so, after my Wife moved out I was in no hurry to replace the bedroom furniture which she had taken (which was all of it...bed, dressers, night stands, lamps...all...the bedroom has been empty since she moved out). Well, today, I finally went online and ordered a new mattress and bed frame, and am now going to start putting together a new bedroom...It sounds minor, but I was really resisting it - just letting myself feel comfortable with a minimalist attitude that was okay sleeping on an inflatable mattress...or even on the couch (as I had been doing for about five months now)...
So...I'm growing up...and fully accepting myself as detached from my wife...I'm starting to enjoy this time I have to myself with my kids - and now just have to continue to enjoy my time when I'm on my own...I have so much work to do - both personally and professionally - that it's not the worst time in my life to be left alone with nothing but my thoughts...
Tonight, for whatever reason, when she came by to pick up our baby, she let me hand him to her - and also handed me a bunch of junk mail that she had taken to her new place when she moved. It was strange to get my mail from her - and I just wondered why she didn't just throw it out...since it was clearly all junk mail.
...oh...as for the day at the farm...it was wonderful. My baby boy loved the petting area - and the little train ride - while my S11 really got into a kind of mining/sifting demo they had set up - he sifted through some sand and got an arrow head, a crystal, some quartz and a few other stones that we're going to identify tomorrow.
When we got home from the farm we just played some more - turning the living room into a huge fortress/maze - and the boys just crawled around for hours...
I just love being a father - and I am so blessed with my two boys.
...in other news...my father left for our home country today...and won't be back in the states until August at the earliest. He's been wanting to move back to Peru since he retired - and now he's on his way...it's good for him - though it does mean that my S11 and I won't get to see him when we go home to the Midwest for the holidays...
It will be interesting to be back home with just my S11. It will be the first time the two of us have traveled alone together since he was three - and it should give us a great opportunity to bond - and for me to show him more of the life I had while growing up in Ohio. Several of my closest friends from high school will be in town for the holidays as well - so it will be a chance to see them and introduce them to my S11 too...I know I'll be missing S2 like mad, though...especially since he's old enough now to get into the fun of the holidays.
Here's something weird...I got a "friend" request today from my MIL on FB...that was completely out of the blue - and unwanted...I haven't spoken with my W's parents in a long time - and have no plans of speaking with them any time soon. I wish they could do more to help their daughter...but I don't believe they ever will.
