there is evidence that she has been going through this for about 2 years. dressing like she was 21, party mode all the time, vacations without me. You name it, I've seen it. the 5 months is the apart segment and it seems like an eternity. Some of my close friends, and hers, are thinking that soon this situation will cross the point of no return. they explained to me that they mean not that she will neverwant to return, they are worried that it will get to the point where I don't want her to return. that is scaring some of our firends. I smile and thank them for their concern. Problem is, thats what scares me. How much is enough and how much is too much. I have thought a loty about that lately. I have not drawn any lines int he sand or put a limit on my stress level, but it is coming to a point where I cannot take her callus nature to all of this much longer. My anger levels towards her are higher than ever the past couple of weeks, most likely due to the holidays, but it is anger. And like the Incredible Hulk, no one likes me when I get angry.
I definitely feel she has been in some place or wandering for at least two years. She seems to walk in circles, and as of late, have stopped watching and waiting. any advice, any pointers anything I can try other than my going dark and dealing with my D and my life.
